Depression is a sign of intelligence. It means that you can't live in the midst of the neuroses of the society any more and you can no longer live with the unresolved issues in yourself. You ask yourself deep inside what is the meaning of your life. Unconsciously you have put on the handbrake.
Depression is a feeling of emptiness, bottomless emptiness and hardly any emotions. That can evoke great fear. Fear that yells through your body. Your body is barely moving, holding back each movement. It seems like you can hardly think and your memory has left you. You don't like anything. It is very tempting then to start comparing yourself with others. You feel guilty because you feel a burden to others and guilty because you are not alive. You are ashamed that you seem to have everything, but do nothing with it.
In fact, a very intelligent process is taking place in you. You no longer want to participate in performance, you no longer want to join the pressure that is being exerted on you to perform, to always be happy, to live a fantastic life. In addition things are forcing themselves upon you, which you have been able to suppress for a long time: traumas from your childhood, things that you may have brought from a past life, things that you are bearing for family members. Putting on the handbrake - even if you have not consciously chosen it - is an intelligence of your soul. Your soul asks you to look at the dark sides in yourself, which want to be resloved. Your soul asks you to find your authentic lifestream: to find work that fits you, to connect with yourself and with others in a way you can be yourself, to feel a flow in your body and a connectedness with the Earth and with the universe of which you are a part.
Depression is a transit; a tunnel to something new. In your depression, you can't see the end of this tunnel in the furthest distance. Everything seems only dead, more dead than dead. And yet: it is a kind of cocoon, like around a caterpillar, and finally a beautiful butterfly will emerge from it, which you cannot believe right now. You can help the process by taking good care of your body, by listening to your body, by meditating, by looking for your passion, even though you may not feel it in any way. Family constellations can help, and body-oriented therapy as well. You undoubtedly also know things that are good for you, because you have benefited from them before your depression.
Feel welcome to consult me, if you want to have a companion along the way, who has gone through the process herself.