Depression is a sign of intelligence. It means that you can't live in the midst of society’s neuroses any more and you can no longer live with your own unresolved issues within. Deep inside you ask yourself what is the meaning of your life. Unconsciously you have put on the handbrake.
Depression is a feeling of emptiness, bottomless emptiness, and hardly any emotion. This can evoke great fear. Fear that screams through your body. Your body barely moves, holding back each movement. It seems like you can hardly think and your memory has abandoned you. You like nothing. It is very tempting to start comparing yourself with others. You feel guilty because you feel a burden and guilty because you are not really alive. You are ashamed that you seem to have everything, but do nothing with it.
In fact, a very intelligent process is taking place in you. You no longer want to participate in performing, you no longer want to engage with the pressure that is being exerted on you to perform, to always be happy, to live a fantastic life. In addition things which you have been able to suppress for a long time are forcing themselves upon you: traumas from your childhood, things that you may have brought from a past life, things that you are bearing for family members. Putting on the handbrake - even if you have not consciously chosen to - is an intelligence of your soul. Your soul asks you to look at the dark sides in yourself, those which want to be resolved. Your soul asks you to find your authentic life stream: to find work that fits you, to connect with yourself and with others in a way in which you can be yourself; to feel a flow in your body and a connectedness with the Earth and with the universe of which you are a part.
Depression is a transit; a tunnel to something new. When you are depressed, you can't see the end of this tunnel in the furthest distance. Everything seems just/simply dead, even more dead than dead. And yet: it is a kind of cocoon, like that around a caterpillar, from which finally a beautiful butterfly will emerge even though you cannot believe it right now. You can help the process by taking good care of your body, by listening to it, by meditating, and by searching for your passion, even though you may not sense it in any way. Family constellations can help, and body-oriented therapy too. Undoubtedly you also know other things that are good for you, because you benefited from them before your depression.
Feel welcome to consult me, if you want to have a companion along the way, who has gone through the process herself.